A Letter to my Enemy. December 25th 2012

Tis the season for reflection and resolutions.
Well Egress is shifting gears and starting a whole bunch of new and awesome stuff in 2013 and as we make that change there will be more blogs from the band coming achya!! That being said i am going to make a slow transition from this blog being solely about the band and use it more so as a personal blog (which i am sure will still mostly be about the band since that takes up about 90% of my life) That being said i am leaving somethings behind me as i re- emerge in 2013 as an individual and Lady Egress. A letter to my Rival, a letter to my enemy.

Dear the People We Were,
   I have to say, I never quite understood you from the start. Although i tried,.... at times I felt as though we came from different worlds, different sides of the tracks. I would hear you say negative things about people,... people you didn't even know, judging them on their appearance or interests. I didn't like that or the way it made me feel. Then one day you didnt even know and I heard you saying those things about me. It was no surprise, you wore your insecurities like a cloak and skewed people and their ideas with them all the while disguising your disdain with arrogance.

You sucked the world and anyone who would listen into your tornado without warning or consideration and felt as though I was simply a means to your end. Walking on eggshells because of the erratic comings and goings and hot and colds and this was BEFORE things really went south. Your brooding would cause green rays of longing and as i moved forth with creating, playing and singing so freely, you were blinded from the truth, which was your self defeating nature.  It has been a long road to where i am heading and I have myself and also you, my enemy to thank.  For putting me down before you really knew me and disguising it in "friendship", for  your vast and quick judgements on those you barely know, for your arrogance and rage, for your lack of follow through and ambition. You, Blaming everyone else for your short comings have been my mirror on the wall. It has helped me see my simple nature and how quickly i can complicate things. I am in control of almost every aspect of my life. I can pick and choose my battles and I have. I am done battling the ghost of you. I am done battling the ghost of me. I am happy with where i am and am going in life and nothing,not even death or illness can take what i have accomplished away from me. For every night i lie down with accomplishment as a pillow.
Heres to 2013, so long old friend, so long old enemy, good luck and good rid dens.
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind 
Should auld acquaintance be forgot,
and auld lang syne

This Way to Sarah: FLIPPING ROCKS, IM NO DONALD TRUMP.

This Way to Sarah: FLIPPING ROCKS, IM NO DONALD TRUMP.: I've spent some time recently taking things out of boxes and putting them away in our new band home,...'The Egress Inn.' Yet all of this org...

FLIPPING ROCKS, IM NO DONALD TRUMP.

I've spent some time recently taking things out of boxes and putting them away in our new band home,...'The Egress Inn.' Yet all of this organization hasn't helped when it comes to building a brand for the band. I can talk for hours and hours about myself,.. who I am,. what i do,. where i hope to go,...what I feel, what i believe,.who i love, etc. However when it comes to defining our band I am at a bit of a loss. A total loss. I keep coming to we love each other, we love music and we love to play and perform with each other,... it is Such an amazing thing this connection we have,.... yet that is not enough in the business world. We certainly aren't looking to be millionaires or even to take this world by storm we just want to be free to create and continue to gather a fan base to revel in what we do,....all of this takes time and money,... and that where this business comes in.
    Fronting/ co- Fronting, running a band is Just like a business, it consumes my brain about 90% of my day. Band mates can practice, learn their parts, contribute when they can and then go home to their lovers, jobs, or whatever they do when they aren't being scalded by Taylor and Myself to "practice" "show-up" "stay focused" blah blah blah.,...  they don't have to carry the weight of keeping everything going, AND recording, writing, creating, booking, promoting, writing their parts or even more importantly building a stronger momentum so that we can all continue to have this outlet and opportunities.

  Its like a drug,.... I thought I got sober three years ago however, this is just equally as mind bending. The Highs, the traveling,. the interesting people we meet, the experiences we share,the rush of the show,the exhaustion and crash after a good tour, the late night nights and delirious mornings. all so we can create more,. build more, study more, see more, travel more, sing More MOre MORe MORE!!!

I have an arsenal of musician friends, artist friends and i have my band mates,..... but we are artists,... thats perhaps my point,... how does an artist that is not inherently a business minded person,.... put together a good business strategy for something they are more then just financially invested in,.... but emotionally dating, much like a lover.

    I am grateful everyday for mine and Taylor's relationship,... somehow after all this time we have balanced,... a relationship,. creative partnership,. and business relationship,... however he is JUST as emotionally invested in Egress as I. Where do musicians go in their brain to disconnect the two enough to know how to promote and market themselves and their troupe properly?

I am excited, curious and even a bit anxious to see where these new ideas take us, perhaps ill then find some answers,..... or turn enough rocks that i start asking the right questions.