POLISHING TURDS

"for whatever we lose lose(like you or me) its always ourselves we find in the sea." -E.E.Cummings
my favorite poet,....
 this quote was best in describing the day I had yesterday. We, the six members of Egress piled in the van friday and drove down to virginia beach for the second and final shoot of our "first ever music" video and I have to tell you this whole experience has been a bitter sweet one.
 
     When Taylor and I first sat down and seriously discussed what we wanted to accomplish in a music video, we both quickly and without haste agreed, we wanted it to be a 4 min movie. We didn't just want it to be the band in some ironic or creepy setting, singing and/or performing to the camera, but instead, a story, a story of the song.
This is partially why him and i make such a good team,.... we have very similar taste and direction and he's one of the only people that can talk me down from the "stress" ledges i so frequently climb up on. Anywho, as i digressed.
We had our first shoot at our favorite venue Roxy n Dukes in Dunellen NJ. We shot the majority of the video there that day. We had our friends from The Unholy Sideshow and Hamburger James join us and I was honored to have my Mommy, her Mate, Bobby and my Student Ali Join us for the shoot that day. We had originally planned on shooting the remainder at Coney Island first it was delayed by rain and then, damned hurricane Sandy came and poor coney island was in its path,....... thus the 7 hour trip to Virgina.
   Normally I love traveling, wherever it may be,... however I have been sick for about 3 weeks now and was not looking forward to standing on the beach all day coughing my lungs up while we shot the most daunting of shots for the video. It seemed as though, so much had been against us with this video, first we had to reschedule b/c of rain, then the hurricane... now we drive 7 hours and have to shoot in VERY windy, 43 degree weather.  We had to recast a key character and we were now short an Egressian. Sand was pelting us in the face  (It was SOOO cold, it reminded me of the one birthday I had in February that My mom and myself grabbed Dog and drove to sandy hook at 4am after a bottle of wine.) the wind was working against us, but like my Egress family does, everyone worked together and we alongside of Director, Ben Muri, Polished ONE HELL OF A TURD!!!!
    We had nothing but coffee and donuts(not exactly power food) all day,.. there was no where convenient to go to the bathroom,...I literally was coughing so hard I peed my pants a bit,.... but we all pushed through and afterwards treated ourselves to an awful, poorly served hot meal at Dennys on our way outta town. It seemed, even more so then, that the last shot of the day was fitting, it was us driving away in Clarence.
After dinner, We worked out the driving schedule and who would be riding shot gun,.... John drove first so he could sleep before he had to continue his trek to brooklyn, and Joe kept him company, Mat and Jaclyn slept in the back to prepare for 2nd shift and Taylor and I curled up on the middle bench, and this is where I found myself again.

As we rode over the 17 or so mile bridge that weaves above and below the chesapeake bay, the sun was setting, casting a warm and distant glow on the water. I couldn't stop watching the little white caps as we scurried down the highway in clarence. I Love being on the road,... I was having montages of all of the interesting moments I had through out the day and then my thoughts drifted even further to my Dad, and Amy and the others I had lost, to my mom, brother and sister and those I still have, and then returned to me, inside Clarence with my music made family. There is just something about the ocean, something about the sea.  That sunset over the chesapeake made the entire grueling day worth it. That sunset will be amidst the montage of life's moments before i die. That sunset and that sea, i found myself in.

I can't wait to see the finished product, I really hope y'all like it. We worked very hard in more ways then I can count to create something we believed in. Something that will exist long after we do. Something you'll all laugh at and enjoy. I will say it again,...
"for whatever we lose lose(like you or me) its always ourselves we find in the sea."